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8 fears

1.       Snakes- Snakes are the most disgusting critters ever. I know they help the environment and all but still…. Couldn’t they be cuter? Maybe less dangerous?  If I have the opportunity (and something other than my hands to help me) I’ll kill a snake on the spot. I know that killing them for no reason at all is absolutely horrible but I can’t help it! I want it dead; I want to know that there is one less snake in the world.

2.       Water- I’m not talking about swimming pools, I love to swim in swimming pools. But I get a little freaked out in lakes, rivers or the ocean just because you can’t see what is underneath you most of the time.  What if something were to grab you and pull you under? What if there was a dead body underneath you? (like in what lies beneath I swear that movie is one of the main reasons I get so freaked out in water) Truth is I am a horrible swimmer, I can float and doggie paddle but that’s about it…. so if something were to come after me in the water I wouldn’t stand a chance.

3.       Stalkers- The thought of someone following me around freaks me out! I’ve had my share of run ins with creepers and ya it’s scary, but there is something about being stalked that is completely unnerving to me.

4.       Losing a loved one- (yes this does include my dog) this is my biggest fear. I can’t imagine what it would be like to lose someone, luckily I haven’t yet.  I know I’ll see everyone again someday, but the thought of not having them with me now is devastating.

5.       Needles- I’ve always been afraid of needles but one time in particular really stands out to me. In middle school I got strep all the time, like once a month. Every time I got it they would put me on antibiotics which meant I got to miss school for 3 days because your still contagious.  But after a while I had several absences and couldn’t afford to miss anymore school. So the next time I got strep I had one option, a shot. (when you get a shot your only contagious for 24 hours) So my dad took me to the doctor we went in and the doctor pulled out this massive needle( I’m not kidding this thing was like 4 inches long). I freaked. I ran out the door and locked myself in the car. But my dad had one of the automatic un-locker thingies.  So he drug me out of the car and back into the doctor’s office. They had to have 4 nurses and my dad hold me down. I was so nervous and tense I flexed my butt so when they stuck me they had to dig it in. It was miserable. My butt wouldn’t un-flex for days so I walked around with a slight limp and a massive bruise. I haven’t had a shot since.

6.       Not being good enough- I worry about this constantly. Am I smart enough, nice enough, strong enough, pretty enough etc…

7.       Losing a limb-If I ever lose a limb just kill me. I don’t want to have to rely on someone else to help me do things. This would literally be the worst thing ever. So for future reference if I am in an accident and lose an arm or a leg please just put me down.  I will be forever grateful.

8.       Child Birth- I want kids more than anything!  But delivering them is a completely different story. I’ve heard stories I know what happens! I don’t want any of that to happen to me. It sounds miserable and extremely painful. I’m not looking forward to it. Maybe I could hire someone to carry my baby....(like in baby mama) ha just kidding! Kinda…